Thursday, September 13, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Video from 12/24/06
Blogger recently added a video upload button. Now I can post my own videos directly to my blog without first boring everyone on YouTube. This video is from my trip last Christmas Eve to Mt. San Jacinto State Park at the top of the Palm Springs Tramway. I previously posted a slide show of still shots from that trip with my friend Stan. For the video I just stood in one spot and slowly turned around in a circle so you can see the whole landscape and hear the children's voices.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
My September 11th Story
Like December 7, 1941 and November 22, 1963, anyone old enough to remember September 11, 2001 will never forget what they were doing and how they experienced the events that day.I was living in Vista, California, having moved with my partner at the time to the San Diego area from Central Illinois just a few shorts weeks prior to 9/11. Brian had returned the night before from a week long business trip to Germany. I hadn't found a job in California yet. We had just gotten out of bed and were heading towards the bathroom and kitchen when the phone rang. I answered it and found myself talking to his mother who was all in a panic. She knew he'd been out of the country but didn't know he was back and was worried he was on one of the flights. I quickly got Brian on the phone with his mom and I turned on the TV. At 7am West Coast time only 1 tower was damaged and both were still standing. I remember watching the news with a sense of unreality and thinking the newscasters were having just as tough a time trying to make sense of it all and come up with something meaningful to say. It wasn't until much later, after more information was available, more images came in, and both towers fell, that it all sank in. To this day any image of the burning or collapsing towers is very upsetting to me.
Some time in the early '90s I took a trip with friends Deborah and Peter to New York City to see our friend Janet in her Carnegie Hall debut as the soprano soloist in Verdi's Requiem. During that trip we had breakfast at the top of the World Trade Center and very much enjoyed a view that's no longer there, except by helicopter. Now I automatically date any image of New York City's skyline as to whether it's before or after September 11, 2001.
What's your 9/11 story?
And for those of you who remember, I'd also love to hear your stories about the day Pearl Harbor was attacked and the day JFK was assassinated. What were you doing? How did you hear about it? How did you feel? What was the reaction of those around you? How has it affected you since that day?
Monday, September 10, 2007
Sunday, September 09, 2007

I recently added Enya's most recent CD, "Amarantine", to my music collection. According to Wikipedia it won the Grammy for Best New Age Album for 2007. The music is gorgeous and filled with Enya's trademark Celtic New Age harmonies, orchestrations, and rhythms. I love her music and am happy to have some new songs of hers. However, I haven't noticed any groundbreaking departures from her previous albums.
Now if only someone could convince Sade to put out something new.
Friday, September 07, 2007
Just in Time
I recently went with my friend Steve to Palm Springs to help him and Michael put in landscaping. After hauling decomposed granite all over the yard all morning in the desert heat and humidity (thanks to Hurricane Dean), we showered, changed, and headed to a great deli Steve just discovered. While driving to lunch we were listening to Michael's favortie radio station, which plays, according to Steve, "old lady music". My ears pricked up when I heard a distinctive voice singing one of my favorite songs and I asked, "is that Judy Garland?" And they listened for a minute and agreed it was. And they asked me which movie the song was from. And I answered that it wasn't from a movie but from her television show. Michael observed, "Tim, were you alive during her television show?" I was, but just. So Michael said I had completely redeemed my gay card.
Needless to say, I was quite relieved. They're always threatening to take it away since I'm not obsessively neat, I'm not a great dresser, and I'm not much at interior decoration. But I am a friend of Dorothy.
When I was taking voice lessons many years ago, I picked up the sheet music to this song and was not impressed. By itself it's a fairly simple song without much to grab your attention. But Judy Garland wasn't just a little lady with a big voice who wore her heart on her sleeve. She also had an amazing ear that enabled her to stay with an orchestra through very complex arrangements. Many arrangers will change keys in the middle of a song to add some energy to it. For Judy, Mort Lindsay created this arrangement that changes key 4 times. And she's not following the orchestra into the new key, she's going there first. For 2 of the key changes she doesn't even take a breath. While holding a note she just kicks it up a notch. And after all that, to end as solidly as she does is not as easy or inevitable as she makes it look.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
When you've hurt someone, don't think about the best apology you can come up with. Think about the best apology they can come up with.
An apology isn't about what you want to say. It's about what they need to hear.
Don't think about this the next time someone owe's you an apology. Remember this the next time it's your turn to apologize.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
I don't know who said it first, but good advice going around the gay community is:
"Be the man you'd want to date."
Monday, May 14, 2007
Assimilation.
It's actually quite fun to have such easy access to my music. And it's very nice to shut out the noise of traffic and construction while taking a break from work. It's the spoon full of sugar that makes going to the gym more fun. I'm just another geek on the elliptical trainer lip syncing to '80 music. And I've skipped a generation of technology in my car, going from a cassette deck I almost never used right to an mp3, skipping the in-dash CD player.
I was hoping to be able to download just the songs I wanted over the internet and not have to store CDs at home. But the cheap internet sites don't have any of the music I want and the sites with the songs are expensive. It's generally less expensive to by the CD in the store. And with artists setting up exclusive agreements with specific sites, I'm still occasionally buying an entire CD to get just one song that I want.
Last Friday was a beautiful San Diego day, bright, sunny and warm(as was every day since), and I had lunch sitting right on the bay watching the sailboats go back and forth. Walking back to work I was really enjoying the music. When I got back in the office I realized I'd been just like those kids in the cell phone/mp3 player commercials; I walked along normally but my shadow burned up the dance floor.
One day last week I walked into the apartment singing along to the soundtrack of "Chicago". Hmm. 40 something. Not married. Likes showtunes. What's my sexual orientation?
Embrace your stereotypes. Then they can't be used against you.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day Mom. I love you!
Friday, May 04, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
Friday, April 13, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Trip to Julian, April 1, 2007
Monday, April 02, 2007
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Happy Birthday to... ...Me!
- Goethe
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
No Parking...yet.
Friday, March 16, 2007
I didn't know...
I didn't know they would be so judgmental about everyone else.
I didn't know I would be blamed for their ignorance.
I didn't know people will think only their own feelings are valid.
I didn't know we should do more for strangers than for our family.
I didn't know they could look at you but see someone else.
I didn't know people would refuse to see any point of view but their own.
I didn't know they could see an act of kindness as an act of selfishness.
I didn't know they will berate your poor competitive instinct, then sulk when you start winning.
I didn't know every corner of the country was interesting to visit, except the one I live in.
I didn't know that everyone will be interested in your news only if it's good. Or if it's really, really bad.
I didn't know people will fail to see how anyone could have an opinion that was at all different from their own.
I didn't know they will feel justified in giving out their own advice, but feel no obligation to consider yours.
I didn't know that when you open up to someone, they'll shoot you down, then complain that you never open up to them.
I didn't know everyone wants an audience, but will refuse to applaud you; even if, especially if, you're better.
I didn't know that if someone recognizes that they owe an apology, they'll do anything to squirm out of giving it.
I didn't know they would always insist on their own way, then wonder why I had no answer when they finally asked me what I wanted.
I didn't know they could praise your many good qualities, then reject you completely when you prove to be human.
I didn't know they would point out all of your faults, but refuse to acknowledge any of their own.
I didn't know a man could become the very person he complained about.
I didn't know life would demand your best, would force you to grow in so many ways, then fail to be impressed by any of it.
I didn't know that people could take and take, and you had to give more and more, and the more you gave, the more they felt they were owed, until you're exhausted. But it never occurs to them that they should give anything back. They wonder what's wrong with you; why did you stop?
I didn't know I would do these things, too.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
I'm posting this now because February 21st, at the home basketball game half time show in Champaign, the Chief danced for the last time. Since 1926 the Chief has represented the University's heart and sole and has always been treated with the utmost respect. Not a mascot, the Chief only came out at half time for his dance. Native Americans made the Chief's costume and presented it to the University during a football half time. I was a member of the Marching Illini from 1981-1984 and was on the field as part of the band during the presentation ceremony. Native Americans have been among those who've portrayed the Chief over the years.
Since the late '80s some have complained that the Chief is a racist mascot and offensive to Native Americans. This certainly applies to many mascots, even most; my High School's "Purple Raiders" represented by an Indian head needed to go and has been exchanged for a different mascot. But Chief Illiniwek; whose dance is based on Native American dance and whose costume is authentic, never led cheers, never cavorted in the stands, didn't pose for pictures with fans; only acted with dignity, was only treated with respect. It's true the University could've handled the whole issue better. It should have aggressively developed a Native American Studies program from the beginning. And some of the university representatives who defended the Chief acted more like they were defending their right to beer instead of representing the Chief. But I think taking a respected Native American Symbol out of the public's eye is more detrimental than helpful.
After staunchly defending the Chief for many years, the University of Illinois, under sanctions from the NCAA that don't allow any post season games to be held in Champaign while the Chief exists, finally decided their best interests would be served by retiring the Chief. Under these conditions I agree with the University's decision. I just disagree with the NCAA's misguided interference.
The video below is of the Chief's final performance. It starts out with some clips of past portrayals of the Chief. One of them you'll see is of a Native American woman who was the Chief during World War II.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
McAfee out, Kapersky in !
Friday, February 09, 2007
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Lincoln's Greatest Speech

Ronald C. White, Jr. gives a very thorough, easy to read description of the speech and everything related to it. He takes Lincoln's words paragraph by paragraph and gives all of the background that brought those words to be in this speech at this time. White describes Lincoln's creative process with examples of previous speeches, letters, and personal notes. He also brings in correspondence from other writers and speakers that influenced The President.
White sets the stage of Inauguration Day, March 4, 1865. He brings in events from Lincoln's life, the civil war, the current political climate, and even the weather so the reader can understand the experience of people going to hear The President speak. And the only photograph of Lincoln speaking was of him giving The Second Inaugural. Ironically, John Wilkes Booth is clearly visible in the center, above Lincoln, facing the camera.
We commonly think of the 20th century as a time of amazing technological change, but the middle of the 19th century was also such a time. After Lincoln's First Inaugural Address in 1861, copies of it were carried by Pony Express until it reached California many days later. In 1865, the first transcontinental telegraph was just completed and The Second Inaugural was "downloaded" from the telegraph and published in the next days newspapers. This speed up in communication compares to the explosion of the Internet 130 years later.
This book leaves you with an appreciation for Lincoln's Second Inaugural Address as a masterpiece of oration by a supremely talented artist who had honed his craft over a life time of practice. In 702 words he describes the outbreak of the war, the effects of four grueling years of battle, and the path the nation should take as the war's end came into sight. People expected that day some words of triumph, of gloating, and hints of punishment for "the rebels". But Lincoln does none of that. "With malice towards none, with charity for all" Lincoln puts the blame for the war on the entire country, the North and the South, and charts a course to "bind up the nation's wounds" and "achieve...a just and lasting peace." In Lincoln's slow delivery and with a couple interruptions for applause, it took him just 7 to 8 minutes to deliver. It only takes a few minutes to read. I found it at: http://www.bartleby.com/124/pres32.html. If politicians today put half the wisdom into twice the words, we'd be amazed.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
IMAX "Night at the Museum" December 26, 2006
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Christmas Day, 2006
Monday, January 29, 2007
Last Day at Wawanesa December 22, 2006
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Mt. San Jacinto State Park, December 24, 2006
This is a slide show of photos taken on my 2nd trip up the Palm Springs Tramway to Mt. San Jacinto State Park. My friend Stan, who lives in Illinois and is visiting Palm Springs, joined me. Since we hadn't seen each other since before I moved west we had a great time catching up with each other.
It was a bright, sunny day in the 40s with almost no breeze. The air was so clear we could see the far side of the Salton Sea over 40 miles away. And the sun was so bright we had a hard time taking photos even in the shade. There was just enough snow on the ground to make it fun. Stan, it was great to see you. Thanks for joining me and letting me show you this amazing place.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Rudy & Mazen's Holiday Party December 2, 2006
Monday, January 22, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Saturday, January 20, 2007
This was another example of a picture that took me all day to get and was a surprise when I realized that's the photo I was trying to get all along.
When I walked out of the building I work in and looked towards the bay I was startled by an even bigger cruise ship than the one shown below and docked slightly closer. It seemed to be bearing down on me from a quarter mile away. I tried all day to get a picture illustrating the effect. I took pictures just out side the building, I got shots along the dock close to the boat, I even took some shots outside our second floor conference room with the top of the ship lurking over the tops of the palm trees. When I left work at 5pm, the sun had started to set. As I walked towards the bay, taking photos as I went, the ship's horn gave off a great loud, low, long blast that is still echoing among the buildings. And then the ship started to back away from the dock.
At glacial, stately speeds the ship backs up and turns, then heads forward towards the mouth of the bay. I'm taking pictures the whole way, even some video, and I'm not happy with what I'm getting. Meanwhile the sun is going down fast. Finally, I see that a small sailboat is going to cross the bay behind the cruise ship and when they line up will be my picture.
I know that most will say that the camera needed to be on a tripod to avoid the shaky lines caused by my inability to hold the camera perfectly still while the shutter is open for a long time in the low light. Perhaps, but I still like the shot.
Friday, January 19, 2007
Ice Storm in Austin
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Art Project Source
Though sunny it was cold so I pulled out the winter gear. Sneakers, no sandals, crew socks, long pants, and a long sleave thermal t-shirt. This is "bundling up" in San Diego.
I expected sunny and clear, but I wasn't prepared for how incredibly clear it was. The ocean looked higher, closer. I could see mountains way to the north beyond Camp Pendleton. The horizon was a clear, distinct line between water and sky. I had a great time for 2 1/2 hours taking photos of the cliffs and the beach and the surf and the rocks and the birds and walking and breathing. I thought I had some good shots and kept putting the camera away as the sun was going down and it started to get really cold. I didn't want to climb back up that cliff in the dark. But the sunset just kept getting better and better. It actually dropped beneath the sea as I was pulling out my camera for the last time. This photo was taken just after the sunset. The sky was completely saturated with color. It was the second to last picture I took. Somehow I don't think I could have just shown up at sunset and taken that photo. I needed that 2 1/2 hours to search for what I didn't realize I would find.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Downtown San Diego, January 2, 2007
I'm enjoying working in Downtown San Diego very much. There's always something to see. I've started taking my camera with me to work every day so I don't miss any photo opportunities.
The building I work in is just 2 blocks from San Diego Bay where all the cruise ships dock. I didn't realize how big these things really are until I moved to San Diego and saw one in person. These things don't just pull up and park in downtown Champaign, Illinois. If they did they'd be the tallest thing there. This picture is taken from over 2 blocks away. Not in the picture is a 15 story Holiday Inn directly across the street stretching its neck trying to be taller.
